Went to watch My Sister's Keeper today with Jiesi, Qiaofen, Pui Ling, Yi Fang and Felicia.
If it was two years back I guess I would never have thought that I would hang out with them one day. But it has happened and it's not like I'm amazed or whatever. It sort of happened, we just went to eat together and, there. I felt a little awkward, probably because I didn't know them that well after all. It's funny how you can know someone for a really long time and they're still strangers to you, but you can know someone maybe only for days and you feel so familiar with him/her.
This made me think of C and Audrey. I remember viewing Audrey's Facebook page a few weeks ago, and I was browsing through her pictures. Her face was a familiar one, I felt connected to her, but it was limited only to our friendship in primary school. I think we could barely count as friends, schoolmates would be a more suitable term. Nearly three years have passed since we've graduated and I'm sure she has changed a lot, as have I. It's just, when I look at her face, and the familiarity comes flooding back. But after looking at picture after picture, of her surrounded by the people playing active roles in her current life now, she suddenly just feels so far away. Kind of like I don't know her at all.
It's been ages since I've talked to C; I do not think he cares. Not in a bad way, we have our own lives now and that's perfectly fine. It's just... People come and go, I've come to accept that now.
The movie was pretty okay, there were some parts which differed from the book but on the overall I liked the variations. I did not, however, like that the fact that they kept Campbell and Julia and Jesse's stories out of the pictures altogether. Still if they did put it in, it wouldn't be entirely relevant to the title of the movie.
Despite this passably enjoyable experience, it just felt like something was missing. I have no idea why, I just didn't feel like hanging out with anyone. I analysed the situation and wondered what it was that made me feel this way because this feeling has been around a lot. The activity itself, that is to watch a movie, is not a bad one. I do like to watch movies, I like the feeling of being in a cinema, the ambience of it all. And it's not like the company I had was exactly bad. True I felt a little awkward. But truth be told: whenever I hang out with anybody now, it always feels like something is missing. Always. It doesn't matter who it is I'm out with, it just feels that way.
I wondered if it was because I've watched so many movies this year and that I'm starting to tire of this, but it's impossible. When I was with him we watched movies everytime we went out and I never did feel bored. Just afraid that he would be bored.
This month it's my turn to write the Prefects' Perspective. I have only a very vague idea of what to write. It's kind of bugging me, just like the noise coming from the TV now, a woman singing Superstar by S.H.E. on the Mandarin version of Don't Forget The Lyrics. I am picturing a middle-aged woman on air at the moment, I have no idea why.
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