I'm Done
Pussycat Dolls
I wasn't looking for this
What is this? I don't know
You know I was doing just fine
By myself, on my own
Tell me how to stop this feeling
I don't wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I'm done, so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find
That what's begun this love
And now I'm done, so done, I'm done, yeah
I can't imagine right now
Standing here, without you
To think that I tried to ignore
What I felt, what I knew
I could never stop this feeling
I don't wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I'm done, so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find
That what's begun this love
And now I'm done, so done, I'm done, yeah
Thank you for not letting go
When I said let me go
Thank you for timing, thank you for finding
Thank you for not believing me
Baby, when I said
I don't wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I'm done, so done
Falling madly deeply I
Surprise myself enough to find
That what's begun this love
And now I'm done, so done, I'm done, yeah
I wasn't looking for this
And now I'm done, I'm done
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I don't usually listen to the Pussycat Dolls, save for the times where I'd hear their dance hits on TV commercials. Surprisingly, they actually sing ballads. Which comes to me as a surprise because all along I've thought of them as a complete dance group. A girl group that just dances and sings songs with fast beats and everything.
I'm not particularly inspired today - I am feeling rather brain dead in fact.
Tomorrow we are dropping by Alex's house for a visit. She is now homeschooled. I look forward to seeing her. I think I need to be braced for how she might look like now. The last time I saw her, her height rocketed since the previous time I've seen her and I think when I see her tomorrow, I should be prepared for more changes in her appearance.
I secretly think her mum (Auntie Agnes) wants us to visit, in an attempt to re-introduce us into Alex's life. And try to bring some positivity/normalcy. Something. It is so easy to see that she loves her daughter.
She used to nag at her a lot (I believe she still does). She always made her do assessment books, made her eat healthy or organic food. Most of which Alex hated. Maybe as a kid I couldn't see it, but now that I am (slightly) older, it's so clearly evident that Auntie Agnes loves Alex, just the way she nags at her daily. I remember she always used to compare how we ate fruits everyday but Alex doesn't.
She was desperate. (Speaking of the word "desperate", I must remember how to correctly spell this word. I keep forgetting.) Alex holed herself up in her room and often just refused to get out. She read books with depressing themes (or so I've heard). Her life was dark and gloomy. Auntie Agnes was trying so hard to get her back on her feet, I was not there to witness all of this, but just by hearing this from my mum, I could feel the motherly love Auntie Agnes had for Alex.
It's extremely paranoid but the last time we were supposed to visit Alex, I kept having an image of her stabbing me with a penknife.
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