倒带
蔡依林
我受够了等待 你所谓的安排
说的未来到底 多久才来
总是要来不及 才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你 却都不在
应该开心的地带 你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆 找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外 却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害 我是真的很难释怀
终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息 求我别离开
你总是要我乖 慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代 你该给的信赖
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖
从我脸上的苍白 看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带 只是感觉已经不在
而我对你的期待 被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块 要怎么拼凑跟重来
终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息 求我别离开
终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息 求我别离开
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I keep waiting for what (I think) will never happen.
Today we had a meeting, it was kind of fun.
I realise that people always lament about how fun Secondary 2 life was. Today I told Eugene that my Secondary 2 life was perfect, save for failing Math. And for that, I am paying the consequences. Honestly speaking, I never wanted to get into 3S4 at all.
And I realise very so often I am constantly being lied to. I hate this. Especially when you try your best to tell the truth, but what you get is someone lying back to you straight in your face.
Today we got back certain papers. I don't want to talk about E Math, except that I expected to do better. Now I know I'm going to fail the paper for sure, even though I just passed Paper 1. Damn it. Paper 2 was a killer.
On the other hand, I did pretty well for my language papers (for the results I've gotten back so far). English was average, I improved for Chinese so I am rather satisfied. Today when they handed us our Chinese Paper 2, I saw it and immediately responded with a dry sense of humour.
I got 58/80. I didn't realise the paper was upon 80 until I looked back at it later. So I thought it was upon 100. I was complaining that for all my Chinese papers, I'd always get 58.
A 58-points streak.
It's like I'd never hit 60. Never. And I'd always look at the paper and slap myself (inwardly) and ask myself why didn't I do better for this section or that.
Of course I was slightly happier when I realised that it was out of 80. However my results from the other segments (Composition, Letter Writing, etc) pulled down the overall mark. Then again, so far it's around 60-something for the average score so I am pretty satisfied.
I am becoming a marks freak. (I'm trying to think it's not a bad thing)
Ate recess today with Jeow and Eugene (and Darren who left after a while). I complained that although I study, certain people like X who don't study still score better than I do, sometimes. Jeow said that although it's unfair, but it (studying) will benefit me in the long-run. Yeah I'd like to think like that (trying to).
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