I lost my to-do list... This is so frustrating. Now I'm at a loss, I really don't know what I'm supposed to do. Damn it. And the weather is scorching hot. Hate this weather. I'm sweating even though there's wind.
In search of motivation, I'm going to switch off the laptop and write down all my goals after I'm done with this post. -proceeds to close all other tabs-
An excerpt from this post in 2007:
"All my life I've been hoping that I am destined for greatness, and I still am... But I can't wait forever for greatness to come to me... I will do something... I will drop out of school (someday if I can), and I will run away from home (someday if I can, too)..."
In retrospect, I must comment that I was extremely stupid at that time. (I was also extremely overwhelmed with emotions of despair and hopelessness.)
Now that I have experienced running away from home (kind of...), I do not have any desire to drop out of school at all. I think, at that point of time, I was too foolish to realise that without an education, it's extremely difficult to excel in life. Studying, is an accumulative effort that spans over years. It holds true that even if I am a degree holder, I might not be able to nab a job, but without a degree, I might not even have to chance of fighting for a job at all.
The point is, now that I realise that in order to achieve greatness in life, I have to work hard for it. Now that I know that, I wish I would just do something about it. (!!!!!)
Okay, that aside, I'm going to blog about what I really intended to write.
I read your post only two weeks after you posted it. (Which means I only read it yesterday.) While it answered many of the queries in my mind, it brought about even more questions. I wonder if I could say I feel vaguely indifferent? I really do not know. In a way, I find this morbidly comical. Are we going to keep communicating over blog posts? Strange.
You're (one of) the most important people in my life and don't you ever forget that. Seasons change and so do people. You and I have changed much over the span of the past few months, and every single day, we are still in the process of metamorphosis. Frankly, I don't know how we're ever going to talk anymore. Maybe when I talk to you I'll realise how much you've changed, and perhaps it will be the same for you too.
I hope you understand that no matter how much we've changed, you will always be my best friend. And you know what? I think, I would never have pulled through Secondary 1 without you. I might have dropped out, might have moved to Australia (I was seriously contemplating it).
We are all getting busier as each day, week, and year passes. Seasons change and so do I, you need not wonder why. No time for revolving doors, no time left for you. Although I hope that the day where I will have you block you out completely due to lack of time will never come, I think, right now, we're already in the process of it. Best friends to friends. Friends to acquaintances. Acquaintances to strangers... Okay I really don't know what to say. All in all, I just want you to know you're a major and important part of my life, no matter how small your role in my life shrinks into. And, thank you. :)
Seasons change, so do cities.
People come into your life and people go, but it's comforting to know: the ones you love are always in your heart and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away.
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