HEART SEIZURE.
My fever's coming back. I'm not quite sure if I should be happy about it.
I don't really have much to post about; seeing that I posted everything yesterday. Oh, my life just blacked out. (typo error, what I actually mean is) my phone just blacked out.
On another note, I do have a video of Cheeyuan I took in class yesterday; I'll post it some other time.
To me, it really sucks when you realise the people you used to be close to aren't close with you anymore. I'd always think about how close we used to be and what we always used to do together, and think about how occurances like that aren't happening anymore. What we used to take for granted (?) are now over in just a blink of an eye. (Well, not literally.)
There are loads of people who have come and go in my life - some I let go of willingly, and others I hang onto, unable to reconcile with the idea of letting them go. But people always come and go in our lives, it's something we should get used to no matter how hard it is.
Today I just found out that Q's father died last year in an accident at his workplace (based on my understanding it was a construction site). What happened was something out of the ordinary, and it was pretty shocking to me, because Q was previously already struggling to pay her school fees. Being a foreigner, she had to pay much more than we, Singapore citizens, have to.
Still she manages to churn out really good results. I can't believe I actually disliked/felt annoyed with her last year, because of Incident X. I wish I could have been there for her, even though we're not that close. I just want to help, some way or the other. (Or maybe the best way to help was to leave her alone but, I don't know)
I'm definitely looking at her in a different light now.
It's people like this that make me feel like I'm not doing enough. Since I have a better environment for studying, why am I not doing better than she is? Simply because I never tried to study as hard as she (or they) did. Now I'm going to try and do things in a different way.
I reckon most people are too busy to read my blog anyway, so I'm just going to write this line down,
"We never have time to talk anymore."
I think... it should strike a chord in someone (or some people)'s mind(s). I don't really want to digress and mention names but I think they should know who they are... That is, if they're even reading anyway. I wonder if I even care (I know I do but I'm just saying this for the sake of it), right now I'm almost adapting to the way things are right now, as much as I dislike it.
I heard from Gabbie we are probably going to Penang at the end of the year... (!!!) All blame goes to the recession - because of this whole worldwide sensation most people would probably be unable to afford to go to Hokkaido.. But that's okay. I'll be satisfied as long as my friends are going, and the fact that we're going overseas is probably satisfying enough.
To end the post with a thoroughly random note - I just realised today that Benson always crosses his arms when he walks around alone. (Maybe not always... But most of the time.)
I'm not lying... =(((((((((((
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