HIATUS; post #4
I should stop naming my posts like that because I am not really on a hiatus anyway. (Though I am posting much lesser than before.)
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Who Knew
Pink
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh, that's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh, that's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no, no no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we, until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss, I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling, who knew
My darling
My darling, who knew
My darling, I miss you
My darling, who knew, who knew
I think, it should be pretty obvious who I'm posting about, once I've begun elaborating on this topic.
Post-note: This post is about a friend which, due to certain conflicts, I've (sadly?) come to lose
It has been really long since we had a proper conversation. I am wondering if I should be upset about this at all, I think I've more or less given up on you, and now, I feel vaguely indifferent. On the other hand, I feel that you, too, have given up on trying to be friends with me because of how hostile I am towards you.
I am not quite sure who to blame it on for the result we have today, we were such awesome friends but now we've dwindled to nothing. What are we now - schoolmates? Enemies? Strangers? I'd say that, both parties were at fault. Of course I'd prefer to think that I'm right, but then again, if I had been more tolerant maybe things wouldn't have turned out this way.
I recall perfectly of the times we had together. We frequently laughed, talked, confided in each other, gossiped, went out, hung out. At some point of time or the other, we were truly near-best friends. I won't say we were best friends because I don't think we were, but to a certain degree, yes, we were really close. I think at that time, you were probably my best guy friend. Closer than Nickwhore Emovil, Nic. C & etc. Really :)
Half a year has passed, and the contrast between then and now is apalling. Who knew that, just months ago, we were laughing together probably over the silliest things, and now we don't even want to talk to each other?
You were a good friend, that I have to admit... At least until whatever it is that happened, happened... Honestly, even now I'm not completely sure what it is that occured that causes us to be so estranged now. I suppose I have a general idea, gotten the gist of it. Still I have to say, it's an extremely preposterous reason for friends to separate... Which brings me to this thought - was it our bond that was easily broken, or that we just weren't important enough to you?
Even though now I wish we could still be friends, but I guess it's just almost impossible. Things can't go back to the way they were before. Unless you knocked your head and everything that happened over the last 8 months gets wiped out of your mind. Unless you suddenly decide to have a complete attitude makeover again. But obviously, it's not like it's ever going to happen. Therefore, I have decided that it shouldn't matter to me anymore. You lead your life and I lead mine. Should I see you I won't start hurling insults at you like I've been doing all along up till recently. Because it SHOULDN'T MATTER TO ME ANYMORE. Because, that should probably be the last ounce of respect I should reserve for you.
I guess things, the way they are now, aren't bad at all. Because I will never have to feel disappointed in you again.
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