HIATUS; post #2
gunslinger-x.
I am currently upset with the fact that I am not sticking to my hiatus; it's been maybe only half a month? I wonder how Shirley could survive. Determination, I guess.
In addition to that, I am upset with the eventual fate of this blog; which is that, albeit the fact is that it's a stowaway now, eventually I would reveal the gateway to this page, and then everyone will be relinking me, reading whatever I'm writing here. (I'm making it sound like a lot of people are reading my blog even though there might not be.. but that is not my intention. =) )
Admittedly, I am glad that as I'm writing this, I am guarded and comforted with the knowledge that no one would ever read this. That is, until I reveal the link of course, but for now I am glad that that's the case. Even though it's only temporary. I feel more safe and secure writing like this, writing, knowing that there's no audience to write for. No one to please but myself.
So why not just change the blog setting to 'Private'? Good question. Doing just that would settle all the personal conflicts and battles, and it only takes a few clicks of the mouse. But I can't do it. Not when I'm so accustomed writing here, knowing that there are people reading. Sometimes... I hate that it makes whatever I'm writing so superficial, despite my efforts to keep things as genuine and simple as possible. I'm trying my best, I promise. (I wonder who I'm promising this to when no one is expecting it anyway. Perhaps, this is a personal promise?)
On to the next matter in my mind. (Yes, I'm not done musing yet.)
One thing that perturbs me, is that I cannot get along well with my mother.
Now that I've started the topic I can't be bothered to explicate...
And of course... there's always that other * bothering me.
Things could slide perfectly into place, like the last piece of a jigsaw fitting into the whole puzzle.
Wtf is wrong with me?
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