I have been telling myself that I cannot blog until I finish my homework. (But now I don't care.)
Ignore this post as, I guess, it wouldn't make much coherent sense. (Yet I feel perfectly lucid now.)
Asada: What are we going to do?
Fujimaru: The two of you leave. I can't drag the two of you into this, after all.
Asada: -smacks Fujimaru's head- Idiot!
I think I don't need to state who but I am glad I know who my true friends are, now. I think it is selfish that although we are such close friends with one another, I do not treat them the way they treat me... Despite the fact I know I will not do anything out of malice or spite or whatsoever to hurt them, I am, at the same time, almost completely unwilling to make sacrificies for them, even though they would very much be willing to, almost without a doubt at all...
I am sorry, ___ and ___.
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Ben Chia and Fel, thanks for your advice and opinion on things, conversations we've had regarding this issue but I have made my decision, and that is that I will not tell him. I have my reasons, which I think I have once told Ben Chia (as for Felicia I'm not sure).
God knows how long I am going to continue to wait, how long this is going to go on, but for now I have settled down in this position and what I have now, is sufficient. Although maybe every waking moment I will feel asphyxiated, I should be happy enough with this current position I have cushioned myself in. Perhaps sometimes I will feel that I could have gotten more out of this, but I wouldn't risk it for the possibility that it wouldn't be. Besides, it takes more than feelings/emotions to make this work.
So there... =)
Also, thanks Gabbie, Darren Lee and Sally a lot a lot :)
Strange how we always have reveries about happy ever afters, when we never think about how much it takes to get there.
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Before I go off. A song I keep listening to recently.
Time Is Running Out
Muse
I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created
You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted
Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation
You will squeeze the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
You will suck the life out of me
Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh
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