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I have decided that for the rest of the week, I will not post any pictures.
With the exception of Thursday and Sunday, though. But I'll keep the pictures to a minimum because I want to force people to read my words. Even if they just rolled their eyes upon seeing the previous paragraph, and are intending to close the window/tab, I am still gonna do it. Because I WANT PEOPLE TO READ MY THOUGHTS.
Javan says he's going for a cosplay event this weekend, as a helper in his team. I WANT TO COSPLAY! But, I've got no time/money to make/buy a cosplay outfit. But it's definitely gonna be fun if it happens! Yet, I don't have the anime look. Hahaha
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Time alone means a trigger to propel me into my own realm of thoughts.
Here are my some thoughts from today, during Math class:
*car rides. ~ quiet. thoughts filling the air.
- What if teenagers were used for lab experiments?
The last thought was inspired by a dream I had last night. I was, along with two other of my friends (forgotten who they are when I woke up), kidnapped and brought to this room, where everything was completely white. We were tied to white chairs with ropes. I was sitting on the furthest right.
Then, some scientists did stupid experiments on us. They include, but are not limited to, tickling us with magazines.
The first thought.
On car rides:
The morning car rides to school have become a familiar, daily routine.
Despite the morning grumpiness and reluctance to go to school, I've noticed something today. That is, I have changed a lot. Really, I have, And not just me, but everyone in the car too. My dad, my sister, and I.
My dad.
Lines of silver now streak through his head of hair. He's... growing old. I've realised that before, but today it hit me again. Hard. I don't think I can ever imagine how it'd be like when my parents die... As much as I hate them, I do love them (maybe just because they're my parents but as time has passed, I've grown to respect them), and I just can't imagine them, when they're on their deathbeds. Or will they slip away, along with the night, and when dawn arrives, we'll realise they're already gone...?
My sister.
She is, definitely, not the same person anymore.
MacBook. CDs. Fun. Going out.
These are the things that revolve around her life now. I wonder if she still cares for the family, I don't think she does but you never know. It's just like how I am, on the surface I seem to be cold and aloof to my family but deep inside, I do actually care.
I'm growing up, to become a responsible person. I'm not bragging because I really am and I'm proud of it. As for her, I don't think she is. She's concerned about partying and thought it might be cliche to say this, but academic performance is IMPORTANT. And, despite her failing overall, she still decides to gallivant around.
The good thing is, she now actually has a sense of style. Even though she might be just following the trends, but oh well. -shrugs-
Myself.
I've changed a lot. I know this too. I've seen myself change. Things I get in contact with daily, remind me of my change. Change, in personality. In attitude. I see traces of myself, in other things, in other people. Sometimes I'm glad I've grown to be more mature. More like an adult. Yet, sometimes things just scream out to me, "What the hell are you doing? Why are you doing this? The real you wouldn't do this. Stop it."
And yet... I can't do it. Now I don't know who I really am. The real me? The real who? Who's the real one? And if the person inside me is real, then who am I on the surface - a fake person?
I don't get it.
I still remember, I used to complain during car rides, how my sister always occupied the front seat. Now that I look back, I can't imagine why I'd ever do that. I cannot even remember or comprehend why I wanted to sit in the front seat... And I used to quarrel with my sister over who should occupy the front seat. Now, I don't even care. Back seat or front seat, I'm still going to get to school anyway.
I need to get to work. -rubs temples, sigh-
P/S
I haven't replied to tags for eons. So Neng Neng, I am replying to tags now because of you! HAHA.
ck: yeah i like the posts too. AND MY NAME IS CHIN KIAT.
NO, you are NICKWHORE EMOVIL!
christine: HAHA! thats me! heh XD
Hahaha yeah. See ya tomorrow!
en: haha i like ur posts too. use more words haha be like me
I used a lot of words already! In this post. Haha.
-DIS-: nooo, it is not D:
I think it sort of is. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHBENG!
mr boo: btw , i delete my cbox liao coz gt some irritating ppl , so hehe , msn better
mr boo: hi thx for the tag ! xD . wats ur hotmail ?
liberty.re@hotmail.com
Add me! Haha. Because I don't have your MSN. Unless you want to tag it.
PeiHan: Lols, you introduce me de quiz, i put there so other people would try it out ma. Then u conduct ur 'survey' xD
So nice ah. Haha.
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