I've got a lot to post... A lot a lot a lot. But now I'm tired, exhausted, and completely and utterly worn out.
So I shall start by saying... I have been restless and very easily annoyed for the past few days. Little details get on my nerves A LOT and it's driving me insane too? What the hell is wrong with me, shouting at people just because they're making noise?
I've been very intolerant of late. Not to mention indecisive (Hai Song can attest to that). I apologize for this behaviour, but now as I'm announcing this, I feel apathetic: Thing is, I think I'll continue being this way for a while. Lackadaisical, aloof and way-too-direct. I'm still waiting for a mood change.
I intended to post about a certain person today, I shall refer to her as A for this post. And I'm going to admit that it's negativity that I'm going to be posting about. I actually wanted to post up her real name but Hai Song told me not to do it, for fear it sows seeds of discord. -sighs audibly-
Deviating a bit: I actually wish I can just post about anything in the world but no, I can't. Why? Because I am afraid of what others would think. And I don't want debates to break out over the content of my blog. Discussion about racism, elitism, dislike, et cetera.
Back to business. Right... So where should I start? A.
A, I am going to tell this to you now: I don't like you. Even though the fact is in that you have no idea I'm referring to you now (unless you happen to have that gut feeling).
When I was crafting this post in my very cluttered mind, I was intending to spin paragraphs displaying my discontent and anger towards you. Maybe not anger, but extreme dislike. I won't say I hate you, because you are not a bad person. But now, more and more, I'm beginning to see more of the bad side of you, instead of the good side. Which (you should know), is definitely not good, for both of us.
Your ego is sky-high and sometimes I'd like to smash it with a mallet, see what's going to happen to you. And I'll confess that many times, that is what I've tried to do. For the past few weeks/days, I've been making responses similar to 'shameless', 'oh shut up' (the list goes on), and this you might have noticed. (Or probably not. You're too engrossed in your world which consists of fantasies and illusions of... well, yourself.)
And I extremely detest this part of your attitude - where you try and shirk responsibility. Sure, I was asking you for a favour. You could have chose not to oblige but you agreed to help. I was expecting it to be done, even if you conveyed the message erroneously, it would have been better than nothing. But nothing, that was what you thrust back into my arms. Which is fine, I would probably have been infuriated for a few minutes and forgive you for it. BUT, you left me with no choice but continue to fume even up till now, hours after the event occurred. You tried to shirk the responsibility. To top it off, you even included your usual egoistic remarks. For God's sake, shut the hell up.
I've got truckloads more to say but I shall spare the criticisms. Barely anybody knows who I'm referring to now anyway.
What happened today was that I got tricked by Hai Song. Lol. So I decided not to accompany him and Mr Boo to the library but ended up there anyway. Ruxin and I wanted to take 157 to go home. But I got onto 334 instead with Hai Song & Mr Boo, instead of 157 which was behind. I can't be bothered to explain but Hai Song kept laughing at me. Yeah yeah, very funny.
Did no studying there, but gossiped as usual. Hai Song PSP-ed as usual. He has this intense expression on his face. This is what he says when he's PSP-ing.
"猪八戒, 突然间跳出来吓我!"
"Wacao, 躲躲躲... 出来! 把他 helmet 打掉!"
(for some reason, he says 'wacao' instead of 'walao' or 'wakao')
Tutored Mr Boo in English, hope I helped him :)
Bye.
P/S
Oh yes and Ah Looi's planning the Charity Bazaar for our class. WAHLAO, WHY AM I DOING WHAT SHIT USHERING? No way am I going to do it, AH LOOI.
So Ah Looi was talking to Fiona.
She asked when the bazaar was.
"When is the Charity Bazaar?"
"8 August. Do you all want to help out?"
"Do we have a choice?"
"Yes."
"Of course not, lah!"
nostalgia - swirls into my heart and soul every morning. i miss everyone, i miss the world
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