Like OhMG I'm gonna vomit.
Ate too much just now. I KNEW I SHOULDN'T HAVE TAKEN THAT SECOND SERVING, SHIT.
God I can just feel the food at the back of my throat, ready to pour out (hopefully it goes down to my stomach instead, right where it's supposed to belong). Weird. :/
I've come to realised that sometimes when you become a friend to another person to a certain extent, it's like the friendship is so gregarious that somehow I just don't know what to say. It makes me begin to dislike the person (yes, there's really a person I'm thinking of right now whom I've begun to slowly dislike).
When I get to know a person, I guess I'm friendly? But I'm polite too, there's this filter that makes me not do things. Like weird, retarded things, I guess. But as we grow more intimate (as friends, obviously), the filter breaks down. It's like a wall that crumbled under the friendship, under all the love, laughter, and the time spent together and everything.
So when that filter stops, I reveal another side of me to the friend, which I know is annoying at times (maybe a lot of times?) and I know a lot of people can't accept it. I'm not being emo now or anything, but I'm just kinda thinking about it because I have really been trying to change. It's like you have to limit yourself to not do certain things, which is easy, but that's very refraining, you're kind of not being yourself. And when I do be just me, I become very, weird. And annoying. It's a disenchanting experience.
After MONTHS - yes, MONTHS - of searching, I've finally downloaded Pedestal by Fergie! Let's hope I don't get sick of it by listening to it too much. It's a great song. I relished Kelly Clarkson's songs from her debut album Thankful, like Behind Those Hazel Eyes, Breakaway, and Because of You. (I just realised all these songs begin with 'B'. :x)
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