I am just a simple, nothing-special girl. I am just one of those other ordinary girls you can find on the streets.
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Today is one of the most emotional, tear-filled, and horrible day in my life. Ever.
I thought it all was okay in school... Then I got home and everything had to screw up. Why does this always have to happen, when one part is fine, the other isn't? And when the second part is fine, the first one has to screw up my life.
I just quarreled with my mother. She said that, from the way I was speaking, I seemed like a machine, just a thing with no feelings... Have she ever thought about how I felt? I said a lot too... Now she knows I don't trust anyone in the world. Even my FAMILY. I thought that families were supposed to consist of people who understood you, who knew you. After all, you spend the whole of your lives with them... And today, after thirteen typical years in my life, I finally concluded that my family doesn't even know me.
My parents have given me everything they can... And undeniably I know it's a fact they love me. I love them too, I really do. But loving is not equal to trust... And I don't trust them. And this is partly why my mother said I was a machine. A thing with no feelings.
I have a lot I want to do.
I want to achieve things normal thirteen year olds can't,
I want to do the things I want to do,
I want to do everything I can, everything, to stop being a normal and typical, nothing-special girl.
All my life I've always hope that I would somehow fall into the category of luck. That I would have my big break out of luck, and things would happen to me. Things that would change me into something especially unique, something extra outstanding... And today I know that not many people even have the luck to fall into the category of luck. So I am going to do something about it.
I would drop out of school, if I could. That's something I really, really want to do now. What's the big deal of being a school dropout? At most you don't have a good education. Knowledge is power, yes. But knowledge isn't everything you learn at school. That's far more than that. There's something called life experiences.
All my life I've been hoping that I am destined for greatness, and I still am... But I can't wait forever for greatness to come to me... I will do something... I will drop out of school (someday if I can), and I will run away from home (someday if I can, too)...
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