Have gotten over my primary school, and I'm kind of still wondering how I did it.
It's like, suddenly, I'm just over it.
Don't get me wrong. I still love and miss my primary school. It's still the best. Really. But it's just impossible to go back, as a student. So I might as well stop wishing.
I've really had it with this school. And I mean Fuhua. Because it really sucks. Yeah sure, we have fun. But honestly, it's bad. The teachers aren't good. The people aren't good. In general, Fuhua has turned me into a bad person, and I don't know how.
And coming to Fuhua has made me not want to study at all. At least when I was in PHPPS, I actually attempted to study. I never really, failed my subjects at all. And now I'm like, flunking half of my tests.
And coming to Fuhua has made me rebel against the teachers. Well from this I can say that there are pros and cons to everything, even though it seems like everything is wrong. My previous state of broke emotional sanity has sent me whirling into a box of emo-ness. I was kind of like trapped in that box. Until, lovely people like my dearest Zhixian-jie spoke to me. Then I guessed, the box really opened up. And I got out.
So it's like, the same. Like this applies to everything. Coming to Fuhua has changed me into a bad person. A bad student. But it has boosted my confidence. In PHPPS, I never dared to protest against the teachers, even if they were wrong, not me. All I did, was sit down and complain to the people sitting around me.
I wonder what's going to happen when Xianyun transfers to Jurong? All I can say it's going to suck. But I have to learn to survive without her. Though I kind of feel that would take another half a year, like I took 7 months to get over PHPPS.
I'm really yearning acceptance from a few certain people. In fact, I'd rather be friends with those certain people than be friends with the others. Because I know, as unrecognised as they are, they are actually the nicest people around.
And lastly... A note to my 'best friend'. Even though I know she will never ever see it.
BEST FRIEND:
We are drifting apart. I don't call you. You don't call me. I think it's going to end. Hopefully not.
Well sorry if I'm intruding your perfect life in a perfect school (which really was my dream school, too) with your perfect... new best friend. I guess our bond just isn't, strong enough.
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